Lonely.

Completely ignored this blog for a whole year.

Wow...

Seeing as I have made it through till now is a miracle!

It is my final semester and I'm proud of myself on reaching this phase. Honestly, I'm pretty much low in confidence myself but to get here... I think it could be one of God's blessings. =)

I came back today is because I threw my diary back home. Yeah. I'm in my campus now and very much alone like 4am in the morning. Yep. Assignments! The never ending story. Ugh.

I have a thing with humans you know. I don't understand them! I'm pretty much one too but maybe I was a cat! YES THAT SHOULD BE IT! I am a pretty pink cat! Yes, fur dye or whatevs I'm still cool! xD

*Glad that I insert my own humor in again. God I miss writing my blog!

Have a lot to worry about you know but hey! It's like what? 2014 babeh! I am back! Here to rock! With daily post of nonsense or question time but I guess everything is will be just the way it is. =)

So, CHEERS Lads and Gents! Tomorrow is a good day!

today. =)

and it was today that I found that it's easy to be yourself again. u just have to find the right person to be with.

I'm gonna miss Callie Tai! She's been my uni friend since last semester and it has been a great pleasure to meet her. God! I miss choir and all that now! damn!

Oh...and I finally have my own internet in my own room in UMSKAL BETA! xDDDD I can update my blog anytime now so yeah...Let's do this yo!

Let's have a picture of the day please? =P

This is me and Callie! Credits to her with this photo and her ipad! =P

CIAO BABES AND GENTS! Till next time! Mandy is here to stay! ^^

Straight on!

I thank God really. He has helped me through so much! Namo Amitofo! Now I realized that my God has it's plans all along! I should trust him in making these decisions next time! I will pray to him and he will guild me through this life! I must trust him!

Thank you so much God! THANK YOU SHI ZHUN!

Worked for mom these few days and is really sick of all the things in the shop! I just wana sleep and partay! However, after going there I realized that actually...I wasted a lot of time! I haven't even studied my language course for God's sake! I have to start ASAP! Like 2ml? yeap! Going to jog or something 2ml la. Better healthy now than never yeah?

Oh! The thing with the maid did not go well! Somehow, I saw Dad being really nice with Mom now. Like he actually cares now! =) He got out of the house and went to grandma's house to have dinner with mom! How grateful of that image planted in my head! =D

So, this goes to show that God loves everyone who sought to him! Pray and he will receive you! We all make choices in life but He is the one that will lead us to the right path! Thank you God for everything! Om Guru Lian Sheng Siti Hom!

Yes. Now I do cherish my buddhist roots. Actually am also proud of it! =)

CIAO! =P

Lies.

Ok....I know I'm playing. Now karma bounce back. Fell for him.

Then after I told him how I feel....halfway...I feel much better! I feel like the weight on my shoulder came off!

I don't love him. I never did! =D

Although it was lies. But I knew there was something there.

Now I know what love is. I knew that I'm close. With each guy I THREW AWAY, I know I'm close! xD

For now, I'll wait. I'll let it go slow. I'll never let anything get in my way. So bye bye playas! =P

I'm beautiful. Thanks for making that happen Mr.China Leto. =)

tears welled up my eyes...

I dragged her to a place so we can talk. She explained everything to me. She speaks so clearly of her part and I had her eyes sore up in tears. I really wanted to comfort her. I knew she cried already, even many more than that. I knew.

He came. You came. Stop track of my heart. Went over and sat with you. You yelled at me. You cared.

She came and sat next to me. Testing time.

You looked at me. You drag my eyes with you. How did you do that? You knew my answer. I wanted to know yours too. Tell me. Please. 

And when you left...

She and me went on and talked. When I realized it was my turn to speak. To speak of you. I. I cried. 

Then now I have nothing. I left no skin. I'm skinless.

Why won't you listen to me? Please listen to me.

I need you. BAD!

WE are...?

Me looking around.

Friend: C'mon...who is it? If that's your friend then go over and say HI and if not, just walk away!

Me: But.......

Friend: BUT WHAT?!!!

Me: I don't know what are we anymore...

Talk That TALK.

I need to talk to you.

"What do you want?"

"You."

"Do what?"

"Talk."

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